Reality is different when you do not understand what is happening!  It is hard to try to figure out everything that is happening around me!  I do not know why I forget how to do things that I could do when I was younger.  It has something to do with being regressive autistic!  I wish that was not the case, but that is my reality!  I want to go forward, but sometimes I go backward!  Reality is hard, but it changes for the best!  You need to accept the truth when it occurs!